Rest

Our church, our community has had a rough year. We have had pillars of our church family pass away, men of God that touched many lives around them. Then our Pastor passed. He had been battling sickness and age for so long, but it was still a surprise.

16426082_10154139296116196_15213510189007622_nPastor Charlie loved God like no one I have ever seen. Passionate. Unapologetic. Generous. He challenged us often and since Daniel and I had served with him for almost 18 years, he was like a father/grandfather figure to me.

There were so many things happening at once it felt like everything was spinning. I knew that God was in control, but it was hard to see Him through the practical. My sister passed away from cancer during this grieving period also. It’s been a rough year.

It has been only 6 months. Somehow I feel like I’m supposed to be up and happy and ready to move but honestly, it’s hard. Transition and change is slow going and extremely fast at the same time. How does this happen? Yes, this needs to change…but wait! I don’t think it really has to RIGHT NOW, right? What do we change while still honoring our Pastor’s legacy? Admittedly I don’t have to have the answers (or want to try).

So I pray. And write. I’ve been working on this song now for about a month. I’m not sure if it’s finished yet, but as I was reading through Scripture I found a couple of things. They are simple, really, but meant something big to me.

When I looked up “rest” I found Matthew 11:28.  “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” I’ve been hanging onto this verse this year. For awhile I didn’t think I needed to rest. God’s in control, I’m good…

I’m so wrong. Fighting and working and fighting some more. God doesn’t want that from me. Rest.

Then I went to Roman 15:13 last night.  “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

The main thing for me? When I rest, He restores. I know that is simple. You probably don’t even think that is significant. I could finally breathe last night. When I rest, He will restore. I’m getting there. Our church is going to have to rest (in Him) while He restores. What peace that brings!

Excuse the recording. I would wait, but waiting until it’s perfect is a bad procrastination issue for me!

REST

You’re the God of hope that fills us with joy

You’re the God of joy that fills us with peace

I rest in your peace

I rest in your grace

Your mercy comes when I see your Face

I rest in your love

That comes from above

You’re hope comes when I trust in Your love

You are for us, here

When we can’t see through the night

You are with us, here

With the promise of Your light

Restore us

Missions 2016

Our annual Missions Conference is happening right now, and it has been a crazy/stressful week. I meant to post this earlier, but there isn’t enough time in my day, so I fall asleep instead! Here is a song I wrote along the theme of our conference.

A couple of things…the Story theme has really hit home with me and I wrote a piece that some of the writer’s guild thought maybe would work into a song. That is part of the bridge.
My friend Mark got up and spoke a long time ago about being a cracked and broken vessel, explaining his nervous issues one Wednesday night as he led worship. God basically said to him that the cracks are where His light can shine through. I have never forgotten that. That is part of the 2nd verse.
A lot of songs don’t mention the blood of Jesus and that that is the main thing that has changed our lives. I really wanted that in there, too.

“Here I Am”

Verse 1
Holy Spirit, we seek You now
Holy Father, we humbly bow
2x
You ask to give all I am
Because of Your cross I’m a part of Your plan

Chorus
Here I am, Lord send me
Here I am, Lord send me
Here I am, send me Lord, Lord send me

Verse 2
Holy Spirit, use my hands
I’m Your vessel, use me where I am
I lift these broken pieces to You
I want your perfect light to shine through

Bridge
When You taught at the temple, You were teaching me
When You healed the blind man, You were healing me
When you calmed the raging sea, You calmed the storm deep in me
Because of Your blood, poured on that tree
I have a story – You’ve redeemed me!

5in5 Day #4 “Glory To God”

One of my very good friends suggested I should write a Christmas song…and I LAUGHED at her! And then the idea completely made sense. So…here it is! Merry Christmas!

Glory To God

Verse 1:

When the glory of the Lord came to earth on that Christmas day

When the Glory of the Lord chose a stable birth no glorious display

Bridge:

And the angels came to lowly shepherds

Do not be afraid

And the angels sang to lowly shepherds

Come and see the Babe!

Chorus:

Glory to God in the highest, peace among those whom He loves

His favor rests on those who seek Him, come worship this Gift from above!

Verse 2:

When the glory of the Lord, was announced by a bright Holy star

When the glory of the Lord, called 3 wise men with gifts from afar

Tag ending:

Glory to God in the highest

5in5 Day #3 “I Come”

Well…day 3 is always hard. One of my goals was working on arranging a hymn so I decided to tackle that tonight. My favorite one is “Just As I Am.” This is my attempt at updating it. Sorry…I messed up several times and was a bit passionate but I can’t seem to do it perfectly tonight! I’m too old for these late nights anymore…

“I Come”

Verse 1:

Just as I am, and waiting not, to rid my soul of one dark blot

To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot, O Lamb I come, I come!

Verse 2:

Just as I am, though tossed about, with many conflicts many doubts,

Fightings within and fears without, O Lamb I come, I come!

 

Chorus:

Just as I am without one plea, but that your blood was shed for me

And that you bid me come to Thee, O Lamb of God, I come! I come!

Verse 3:

Just as I am, poor wretched, blind, sight riches, healing of the mind

Yes all I need in Thee to find, O Lamb I come! I come!

Verse 4:

Just as I am, You will receive, You welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve

Because Your promise I believe, O Lamb I come! O Lamb I come!

Ending Chorus:

Just as I am, Thy love unknown, has broken every barrier down,

No to be yours, and yours alone, O Lamb of God, I come, I come!

 

 

5in5 Day #2 “All The Days of My Life”

So I had something else planned for today…had even written down a couple of chords at lunch!

BUT…”The great lightening storm of spring 2014″ intervened.

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Here’s what I mean.

We were at a softball game tonight (third game of the night). The clouds were amazing…and the lightening started. It was impressive (at least I thought so), but a couple of the kiddos weren’t impressed. They were quite scared! I talked to one about how God was taking care of her and even when she was scared she could trust that Jesus would watch over her. I kind of wished there was a song to sing to take her mind off of the scary display.  So…I wrote one!

“All The Days of My Life” 

Verse 1:

When I lay down and when I’m awake, I know you’re there I just have to take

Your hand in mine, You’re with me all the time

Verse 2:

When I ride my bike or when I play ball, I know you have me through it all

I like knowing you, and that will always be true

Chorus:

Surely goodness and love will follow me, all the days of my life

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever and ever!

Verse 3: (Quite possibly my favorite!)

When I go to school and when I’m at home, I gotta try hard not to moan and groan!

Because you’re there with me, it’s as easy as 2+3

End:

It’s a promise from You to me, and I’ll believe in you faithfully

All the days of my life (x4)

 

5in5 Day #1 “You Answer Me”

Oh how I struggle with words! I think I have so many things to express about what Jesus has done in my life I just freeze because no words are adequate! So, this year I have been making notes from scripture. Can’t really go wrong there, right? This is from Psalm 3.

YOU ANSWER ME 

Verse 1

You O Lord are a shield about me

My glory and the one who lifts my head

Verse 2

You O Lord, You sustain me

I will not fear I will trust instead

Pre Chorus

I cry to the Lord with my voice

And He answered me from His holy mountain

Chorus

Lord deliver me

God come set me free

I lift up my hands in surrender to You

Tag

You Answer Me (3X)

And I am free